Friday, December 19, 2014

My Journey Update #4

I am about 4 months 2 weeks postpartum. Having had my baby girl Sophia Marie. I have been on MyFitnessPal. I have went over many days. I haven't had the drive as I did before I became pregnant. Though, I have still lost weight since having her. I haven't went too far over my calories when I have. Which is good! The only day I can really recall just bombing them was on Thanksgiving.
I don't know what it is, I think its the human natural instinct to eat, eat, eat for winter. But some days all I want to eat! 
I'm really hoping to get closer to my goal by Spring.

I haven't made an update photo collage since October,
As of  today, December 19th. 2014 I weigh 167.1 lbs.

I am really happy to see a difference.
As someone told me; 
"The woman on the left looks closed, like hiding from the world, And the woman on the right looks happy, open, like here I am!"

I really took that to heart after reading that. I mean, after I had my son in 2010 I felt gross. Honestly.
I was uncomfortable in my own skin. 

Looking though my old photos now I think back how I felt about myself. And I realized that I was bigger than I thought I was!

A few weeks ago I went to get a checkup, It was about the same time that the photo on the right was taken. I asked my doctor could I view how heavy I was as far back as possible.
She said sure. She went back to 2010 right after I had my son Graison. I weighed 242 pounds! 
That floored me.

Never in my life could I imagine I would that unhealthy!

I know I have had many insecurities in my past but right now they are slowly going away. 
(Other than my Vertical C-Section scar. I'll get back to you when I loose more weight.)

 If you want to join me on MyFitnessPal (FREE Just your willpower)
please add me! I try to log everyday!

Thank you for reading!!

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